i'm so mad at him. i'm mad at him for not wanting me. two nights before i left we were all curled up together on the floor. then the night before i left we had this huge fight, and then talked through it all i thought. and now i'm back and he's totally distant, acts as if none of it ever happened. fine. i don't know what i expect. but this is not working. i can't just turn off all these feelings that have come up so strongly, and been returned kinda sorta not really. if we're really doing this just friends thing again, i need to get rid of these feelings. which is hard. which i hate to do. but whatever, i've done it before. fuck always waiting for his call, when half the time it never comes, and if it does its too little too late.

  posted by meg @ 1:44 AM

 
i love him. simple as that. and so what if we can't be together, if we want different things right now. what we have is so sweet, and so satisfying. he's my best friend. we care about each other so much. 'nough said.

  posted by meg @ 1:47 AM