sometimes i listen to angry girl music and feel empowered and say fuck it, i don't need shawn. better off without him.

sometimes i think of how much fun we used to have and i'm overwhelmed with love and affection for him, and just want us to be best friends always.

sometimes i feel empty and sad, and utterly heartbroken that he doesn't want me.

its ok tho. someday my prince will come....


  posted by meg @ 8:46 PM

 
so i haven't talked to shawn since i've been back. and i'm trying not to care but obviously i do. i miss him. so i log onto his ofoto account and find this newly posted album of him and ven. pause. WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS???? is it new?? did she fucking just visit him in hawaii?? are they fucking back together??? if it's old why the FUCK did he just publish it? breathe. flip past the pics of him holding her, to the one of her kissing him, and him smiling. totally break down crying.

i give up. enough of this gut wrenching horrible painful crazy feeling. i'm done with it. i'm done with him.


  posted by meg @ 2:19 AM