"This much I knew and know: I was making myself hideously uncomfortable by not narrowing my attention to details of life which were immediately important, and by refusing to believe what my neighbors believed.

I am better now."

  posted by meg @ 7:36 PM

 
soooooo i'm bipolar. for real. daddy says it's not type one, cuz that's when yer manic for weeks, then depressed/apathetic ish for weeks, back and forth. me, i just go day to day, hour to hour really, superhigh to super(bitch)low. it's not so much fun for me, but it's really not so much fun for those around me, namely my family.

really, i think inside me simultaneously i have the potential to be really happy or really not, and it's just how things are going in the moment that decides it. right now, for instance, pissed at ez i guess cuz he's my polar opposite and i don't understand him AT ALL sometimes. but also these people are coming to maybe buy my harp and i'm SO EXCIITED 'cause that means maybe i can get my new harp really soon and that makes me happy happy happy!!!

so maybe i'm actually schitzophrenic, eh??

shit.

  posted by meg @ 7:43 PM

 
i have the cutest friends ever. seriously. like ok, i was having a pretty good day, chillen with ez in town, being all crazy and hyper and fun. but then my meggie-moodswing-madness hit and i got all bummed and came home. so THEN laurin had called (yay!), and we ended up on south congress for 1st thursdays, with TONS of booth table thingys with all kinds of cool shit, and live bands on every corner. and laur and i got matching henna tattoos which i've wanted for EVer. :)

oh. and. hehe. my DRESS came today. *grin* my fabulous, gorgeous, melt-in-your-mouth, magically delicious recital dress. hmmm. major props to nuiko for helping me find it.

k and then, emily sent me another letter, and dude, snail mail is soooo much better. and tmf was so good for our friendship, we totally bonded over our mutual delight in shoes, red heels in particular. and hopefully we'll party together over spring break. yeah buddy!

tubing tomorrow with laur down in new braunfels, which i haven't done since i was a kid. oh sweet summer, must you end so soon??

  posted by meg @ 12:26 AM